I've realized over the past couple weeks just how incredible pregnancy is and it makes me kind of sad that it's almost over. Don't get me wrong- wow I am ready to be done, but I want to remember all of these symptoms and feelings, because I have almost nothing from Ammon's pregnancy.
Here's what I can remember:
Back
in January- forever ago, I know- I had suspicions of pregnancy because I
had been feeling pretty sick. This pregnancy was and wasn't planned. We
knew we wanted our first 2 fairly close together so we thought we might
as well start trying when Ammon was a year old. Now, considering my
situation, I had never done birth control before, and I'm already a
fairly forgetful person, so taking a pill everyday seemed easy- but I
had no idea the effects it would cause if I forgot once or twice. I was
just so entirely bad at consistently taking the pill, and once I finally
had someone explain it to me, I decided to take a break from it for a
month to let my system re-regulate and then I could start doing it
"right".
So anyways, long story short, I
took a test about 3 days before my expected cycle and sure enough, a
very faded pink line showed up. I took some lipstick and wrote baby
number 2 on my belly and then went and woke Leka up to show him. I
planned on waiting to tell him, but I got entirely too excited.
His face was kind of in disbelief. He was excited, but honestly probably a little freaked out.
Anyways, after all that excitement, we both decided we would wait to tell everyone.
To
be completely honest, Ammon's pregnancy was the hardest pregnancy to
announce- especially to my family, for obvious reasons, so for some
reason I had this huge fear of telling everyone, but mostly I was
terrified of telling my mom. I have no idea why. I mean looking back I
can see that it's my life, I'm happily married, and this was something
that I wanted, so there was nothing to be ashamed of. It is rough to
feel judgment, cause hey, I'm only 20. 2 kids at 20? But what I've
learned over the past 8 months is that age does not matter at all. It's
all about what you're willing to take on in life and what you commit
yourself to. And this was something I felt really right about.
So
I had held in this secret for maybe a good month, but I slipped. On
facebook, I commented on a Intermountain Mom's post to try to win
diapers, and of course, not thinking anyone would see it, someone on my
mom's side saw it and told everyone on that side. It was fine, but
totally unfortunate for me, as I wasn't planning on announcing it until I
was at least 15-20 weeks. I knew I needed to tell my mom and dad, but I
kind of ruined that with the post as well.
In
the end, I truly had nothing to be afraid of because in the end, my
parents were excited for us and from then on it felt good to have
everyone know. My mom was obviously concerned that I would be super
stressed with having 2 under 2 because she knows how easily stressed I
am.
So after all the drama little mama- its been a good 6 months of just enjoying pregnancy symptoms.
Oh the symptoms.
This
pregnancy has been completely opposite from Ammon's. I had such an easy
pregnancy the first time around. I didn't realize it until this
pregnancy. Mostly the morning sickness. I have been sick for the past 8
months. The first 2 months were the hardest. I didn't want to do
anything. I just sat around and watched TV all day with no motivation.
There was about a month or two around 18 weeks where I got all my energy
back and I just felt great, but then around 26 weeks, it was right back
to the beginning. I throw up almost every morning, so truly it is
morning sickness.
Does
anyone else have a problem with the sciatic nerve? Oh em gee. This is
probably my least favorite pregnancy symptom. I hate it. If you don't
know what it is, I can't help you, cause I don't know either. I just
know that at any given time of day, without warning, there will be a
very sharp pain in the front of my hip that will make it impossible to
walk or even stand. In fact, as I type this, I am sitting, and I feel
it.
Heartburn.
Oh the heartburn. I have definitely experienced this before and with
Ammon, I used pepcid. Pepcid was my best friend. Pepcid is just not
strong enough this pregnancy. I have had so many sleepless nights
because of heartburn. Thank the heavens my doctor let me take prilosec. 1
pill every morning, and NO HEARTBURN SINCE! It's literally a miracle.
Thank
the heavens I haven't had any swelling, but wow I feel like I'm
carrying a bowling ball around in my stomach. I am so freaking
uncomfortable all the time. I cannot find a comfortable position to
sleep in at night.
Besides
just being uncomfortable, I get terrible sleep because I'm constantly
waking up to go to the bathroom. This pregnancy came with the weakest
bladder ever. I feel like I have to pee even if I just peed 10 minutes
ago. It's ridiculous.
All
in all, pregnancy is great. I just can't get over my excitement to have
2 boys. 2 children that came from my body. I already feel so much love
for this baby boy. AND NESTING IS REAL. I am so anxious. I feel like I
need to get everything ready, like RIGHT NOW. And even though I have
probably everything I need, (aside from diapers) I still feel so
unprepared.
All in all, at 35 weeks
pregnant, (today!) time is running out and I am going to document the
last 5 weeks, to the best of my ability.
Alright here's my best news:
I love my husband now more than ever-
We
got our temple recommends yesterday and we are taking our endowments
out this Saturday, the 12th of September. We are more than stoked and
happier than we have ever been in our marriage. I cannot wait to be
sealed to my family for time and all eternity. There is seriously
nothing better. We are trying to be sealed before this little baby comes
and makes our life even more hectic. So I'll definitely be writing
about that as well.